How can there be drastic changes made when the systems are all weighed against change? This has been the weight on my heart and soul. It’s affecting me.
Unless I were a billionaire, my voice is lost in the din of a billion others. Not that my voice matters more, but that all of our voices should be heard and should carry equal weight. They don’t, though.
These last few weeks, everything has felt futile. Everything in me is saying to let go and focus on my own connection to nature, insulated from people that only want to cause pain and havoc on others and the environment. It’s been more and more difficult to write because I want to provide solutions to issues, but the solutions are now repetitive and out of my control (such as embargoes and sanctions).
Lies are presented as facts that are not to be challenged. Hypocrisy is rampant. Ego is rewarded. More wars and destabilization are occurring. Our planet is suffering and crying out for help.
It hurts.
I’m not tossing the towel in. I need to acknowledge and feel this loss of the world I had hoped for and brace myself for this reality.
The question that I need to grapple with is how can I make meaningful change when the system does not want me to change it? I want to help make this planet a better place. Where do I contribute that will actually assist in some form of actionable progress?
I’ll be making some phone calls today to figure out where I can actually help, not just sit in a zoom meeting for an organization or donate my money. I think what is also affecting me is that the realization that so many groups pose as change makers but do nothing for humanity or nature, makes me leary of joining a group and putting my name to something that does nothing.
If you want to join a group or organization, take your time with them and feel it out.
Lastly, I want to apologize if I am writing more sporadically. I’ve been making sure that I am spending more time with my children. That time is something I took for granted in the past. I am mad at myself for this and I’m making changes in my life so that my time with my children comes first and foremost.
It matters that we share our pains together as well as our joy. If you are going through a hard time right now, I am sorry. Put words to it and set that pain free.